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Life... A Blank Page!

Whenever I open a notebook and come across the set of blank pages; my mind goes blank. For some reason, it always reminds me of my life. It forces me to start thinking about my life; about the past and the future.

Being part of the age of computers and belonging to the IT industry, I hardly get an opportunity to actually pick a pen and write in the notebook. I write lot of blogs, poems etc… but I write them on the webpage or in Microsoft word in my laptop.  Once in a while I like to go back to traditional form of writing; using the actual pen and paper. And in last few years; I noticed that every time I try doing that for some reason the blank paper gets me all philosophical.  







    

Although I never have that thought while opening the book; but whenever I see those blank pages; I just go blank. I always feel that my life is staring back at me with all those unanswered silenced questions, doubts, thoughts…forcing me to think – What does my life look like? What if I hadn’t made the choices I made in my past? What if I chose the other path in all those decision making points in my life’s flowchart? Where would I be and how would my life look like? My mind is flooded with thoughts reviewing all those “If..Else” clauses of my life.

It's not like I regret what I am today. I am happy the way I am and I could not be more content with my life than I am today. It’s just that I don’t understand why do the blank pages always trigger these thoughts? May be its like life; Blank. You really don’t know what’s going to happen next. Whenever you think you know exactly what to fill in those pages; Life changes.

I remember a friend of mine sharing one of his experience; where he thought he will write a poem about Life and pulled out a page; wrote the title “Life” but could not fill it in. He just left it blank and said that’s his poem on Life.

I think it’s true; I feel a blank page does depict life in motion; just like void doesn't mean there’s nothing in there; it just means there’s so much that cannot be contained in that space.  

-Sarita
(15th March 2014)
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